it’s my wedding and i cry if i want to

met up with my former students (who graduated 2 years ago) last saturday to brief them about sunday’s plans. they have very graciously volunteered to help me during both wedding events (solemnisation and reception). actually, it’s a janji laaaamaaaaa dulu. the whole gang of them, in class when they were in sec 3 during my lesson.

they said “cikgu kahwin nanti, mesti bilang kita tau. kita nak tolong!” they kept repeating that over and over sampailah habis o level.

and two years on, i thought dorang dah lupa pasal tu. saya pun tak pernah ungkit pasal janji tu.

sekali, they found out about my wedding….. the girls yang reminded me about ‘the promise’ i made.

so there’ll be former students with me. wahal dulu i dah kata pada diri sendiri, tak nak ada students involved. hurhur. but these girls are special. they are the sweetest darlings (with a lot of spice, too!) yang i ajar sejak they were in sec 1.. sampailah dorang habis sec 4 o level. sampai now pun, budak-budak ni dah masuk poly, their siblings or cousins pula yang i’m teaching now.

so anyways…

5 days to go and i wish i dont have to be here at work

off i go now. 1554 hrs. lets try to leave this office by 1600 hrs.

taaa!

the what if panic

the what if panic. what if nobody wants to aattend my wedding? what if none of my friends want to come? what if the dinner event ada so many empty tables?

panic.

what if.

what have been done

to be honest, there is not much progress in the wedding prep dept. save for a few. itu pun done after office hours or squeeze some time in between my already packed weekends.

the deco was discussed late in the evening at 630 after work. the fabrics were bought on a sunday when i managed to skip a lesson. sent to the seamstress on a sunday after my weekend lessons that ended late at 5 pm. after a lot of rescheduling to fit in as many things (both work and personal) as possible

yes, this is slowly degrading into a whine. i’m exhausted. truth be told, i couldnt be more thankful when the lolas asked our meeting to be changed to late nov. cos, honestly, i’m up to my neck with work. however, must add that i’m thankful that my colleagues in the dept have done a lot while i was occupied with long meetings. they’ve managed to get so many things done so the least i could do to ease some of their work was to at do the ict report component. i seriously feel bad adding on more tasks to others when they already have a lot in their plates, especially when the hols are approaching.

and the clearing up of wadrobe from the previous post? that was done during my short break semasa buat some work di laptop tu. all i did was keluarkan the baju from the wardrobe and asked the kind help of my domestic helper to fold the clothes and put ‘em in bags. also told her to take any clothes in that stack should she like any of them. the work clothes and tshirts, especially, were all in good condition. so there. i didnt do much.

i’ve failed as a bridezilla. this lil miss is still very much busy with work till… i dont even know till when. my calendar is already packed till end of november. i think i’m the bride who’ll be working even till the eve of her own wedding. not kidding.

i’ve a sharing session to attend this afternoon. off i go now.

oh please lemme lemme

oh please lemme lemme finish up my work asap so that i can leave the office and head home in 30 mins max. plan was to leave at 12 noon. looks like i’ve skidded it by 15 mins.

i badly wanna go home and catch up on sleep.

falling

after a week long break from work, you know how lengit it is to start again. must have been some excitement of some sort. i couldnt sleep last night. ended up sleeping at 4 am and rudely woken up at 615 am. work is work is work.

despite all that… the engine is still running at 530 pm. managed to clear a long overdue dept meeting. produced relief schedule at record time. prepared agenda. this and that. 2 more major tasks in the to-do list.

so far, the major issues pertaining the wedding are a-ok. my fbil and fh (chey, in forum lingo. huhur) will be sharing the kompang. that one, we’ll let the fbil, the other groom, take his pick. we no cerewet.

next, time to get the documents ready for the romm registration *i cant believe this is really going to happen soon. as in, sometime next week or the week after next kinda soon!*

and we cant believe that registering for a pre marriage course can be so melecehkan. the system didnt receive our application although we have submitted it online. even got the ‘thank you for registering with us’ page. still, the other side claimed that they didnt receive any submission

fret not. nevermind. esok will try again and i hope we are able to make a verbal application through phone and make the full payment when we attend the course this weekend. shall try my luck.

for now. all i wanna do is bury myself in world of work. 3 more weeks or so of this mayhem. and welcome the long break, we shall

in the mean time, hello dark rings and eyebags.

can forget it

haiyah! can forget all about cooking for buka this afternoon.

cos just dapat tahu that i have long long meeting later at 3 pm actually, my fault juga… cos tak check my email. nasib baik ada colleague yang reminded me about it. what to bring eh for this sem meeting? dah lama sangat. oh ya! baru ingat, do a darn lot of reading. yes, yes.

dah 2.30 ptg ni. rasa-rasanya 30 minute cukup tak untuk baca all the sem write ups yang beremel-emel panjangnya tu.

tengoklah sempat tak nanti pergi gym.

inilah realitinya, kawan-kawan. i’m always busy with work, actually. bila ada kesempatan and breaks in between, baru cepat-cepat cuba rush as many things as possible. that should explain why i make deadlines for a lot of things.

and the mr ada job interview esok pagi. let’s pray that it’s good news pagi jumaat nanti

tara! H needs to catch up on readings before the meeting so that i dont end up looking crazy blur like a bimbo nanti. hurhur.

what have i done?

oh man. i changed the theme for this wordpress and all my widgets are missing

will doll it up proper later when i’m free *sigh*

here she comes

the dee-dee-es-eee will be coming today. thus, no stone is left unturned. everyone in ready mode for action. not the funnest of things to do this monday morning. so that explains why me is dressed up for work. complete dengan blusher segala tau.

and student R from my 4nt commented i look pretty today *awww* my reply? “terima kasih! susah nak dapat pujian dari R. cuma 2 orang je yang awak puji kan… mak dengan gf. saya kena tunggu 4 tahun, baru awak puji saya cantik.” hehehe

anyhows. my eyes are going ouch reading one SEM report after another. things to read before the loooong meeting tomorrow afternoon.

time check.

10 minutes before i ‘report’ to my ‘station’.

adios! gotta run to the tandas now…. sakit perut. of all times!

replies

emails to replies and take action. for your immediate action! for your info! for your data! for your this. for your that.

Fairy godmother

Dermatologist: i liken that to my personal aunt aggie for my skin woes cum the fairy godmother (in my case, the godfather) who’d somehow magically come up with magic solutions for my troubled skin.
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With a hefty price tag.

Consultation + products = Kissed $250 tata.

It’s all for the wedding. It’s all for the wedding.

Eh wait! Correction. Niat dah salah.

It’s all for the *future* hubs. All for the *future* hubs.

Right now, work is making my heart race. Ooh me poor heart…

penatlah

i iz tired.

itchy twitchy

ooohhh my hands are itching to feel the texture of the fabrics di arab street! i cant wait to do some DIY for our wedding. the cupcake stand, the pillows for the bridal room, the canopy, the bantal hantaran, the desserts corner for our nikah, the money box. a wishing tree, kalau sempat.

*clap*clap* to arab street! to arab street!

of an issue even more pressing. i need to go to my dermatologist asap. this month’s period is bad. a sudden surge of pimples *sigh* gimme the bloat, sugar craving or tenderness… but not the pimples, please

plans for monday

*bliss*

i have a plan for monday

1. big breakfast @ mcd
2. day trip to batam for a spa-ty with the girls
3. shall end the day with a relaxing night swim at the gym’s pool before i head home

if there’s one thing that i cant wait to do in 2011, it has got to be not spending money on frivolous wants.

and year end salary please come quick. i jolly cant wait to pump 3 months worth of dosh into my savings account *alhamdulillah*

come january, it’ll be major crash course saving for the next 12 months. $1500/mth = die!

but i do know that it is possible, insya allah

got to force myself to save that amount of money cos i just wanna make sure that i have a substantial balance of at least 10k in my savings account after the wedding ceremony itself. saving up for wedding + marriage, after all, is not about having enough money to cukup-cukup pay for the wedding aje.

esok dah december

cepatnya! esok dah december *boo*

malasnya nak go office *boo*

The first argument

The first argument with my dad pertaining to the wedding preps – We want different caterers.

Nasib baik dah cepat-cepat book deco before he sempat apply any of his veto ‘power’. Huhu.